blah ok time for a real entry
so i stayed after school n helped dbake with his lab
i spent about half an hour walking back to school n an hour moping around my house doing nothing when i got home
funfun
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n shut up charles about my lyrics lol they pretty much summed up my day...so it was actually an entry
poop be on u
so neway
i finally finished my english writing assignment
yay
not really
i spent a lot of time just trying to remember shit n to try to see it from the dude's point of view o.O
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its not taht good lol i could use WAY betetr descriptive words n just descriptions in general. but w/e
here
Guy:
“I…I
guess I have to leave.” I looked at her sitting next to me, her hands in her
lap, staring straight ahead.
“Ok…umm...yeah.”
I ran my fingers through my short black hair and stood up.
She
stood after me and shuffled her feet, looking straight at the ground.
“Hey…whats
up?” I gently brought her face up to mine and her eyes looked sad and far away,
“You ok?”
She
smiled, “Yeah.”
On
reflex I reached over to hug her and she sank into my arms. Her body was so
warm against mine, so soft and comforting. I leaned my face against her hair
and smelled her shampoo. The calm scent of lilacs hovered about me. Why did I
still love her after all she’d put me through? Why did I still feel things for
her?
“I
missed you.” I whispered to her, hugging her harder.
“I
missed you, too.” She pulled away from me abruptly and turned away from me,
“Your girlfriend wouldn’t like this.”
My
girlfriend? I’d forgotten I even had one. Just seeing her after all this
time…it brought back so many memories. Who am I fooling? She probably doesn’t
even care about me any more. She was probably being nice and hugged me back
because she felt sorry for me. How could I ever be foolish enough to think that
she could love me again.
I
turned my back to her and sat back down on the sofa. I heard her sign and walk
away. Then, just as she was on the top stairs leading out of the basement, she
whispered her last goodbye.
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Girl:
Why was I always so nervous around
him? Why was I afraid to make a mistake, to say the wrong thing? I wouldn’t
even look at him. I was too scared that his eyes would shatter my heart.
I
stood to leave and he reached over and embraced me, his arms so strong, pulling
me into his safe grasp. I leaned into him and wrapped my arms around him. God,
I wished I could stay like that forever. Why had I left him? Why had I broken
his heart- and mine? Looking back, I didn’t even remember. I wished I could
turn back time but I knew it was impossible.
I
heard him whisper that he missed me and I said I missed him back. It would have
given me the greatest feeling in the world to know that he had meant it, but I
knew he would never care about me again after what I did. And it wasn’t like we
could just start dating again…he had a girlfriend. I pulled away from him when
I remembered, and turned my back to him, ashamed that I had hugged him when he
had a girlfriend that had probably been ten times more loyal to him than I had.
The
sofa squeaked as he sat down on it and I sighed. Walking away, I wished he
could give me another chance. A third chance. I wished he could love me again.
I said goodbye to him and went back to my house where I just cried. I cried and
let go of all the hope trapped inside me. I let is all escape until there was
nothing left. I knew I would never see him again.
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